Little one,
1) You turned my innie into an outie this week. Gross.
2) You made me pee when I sneezed. Double gross.
3) You grew like crazy, and sapped me of energy.
Despite the above list, I think I'm growing to love you more and more each day. I don't know if it's your constant movements - your need to let me know that you're hanging around comfortably for the time being - or if it's the little hands, feet and bum that brush against my hands when I hold them against my tummy - but I'm falling more in love with you every day. It's weird to say; I mean, I'm loving being pregnant, and despite the lovely aforementioned side effects, it's so absolutely miraculous and energizing that you're growing inside of me. I love it. I love you, and I haven't met you. I never thought I'd feel this way but I'm feeling it.
This week was a little tough, and I think it was a combination of you growing pretty rapidly (a tight belly will attest to that) and some fructose malabsorption on my part. Cleaning up my diet has really helped me recognize very quickly what foods wreak havoc on my system, and after some really cranky days, major exhaustion, digestive upset and carb cravings, I admitted that I was eating way too much fruit sugar - and symptoms of fructose malabsorption include exhaustion, tummy troubles, and crankiness, which I was feeling pretty forcefully this week. I'm enjoying playing around with my diet, and I can't wait to see what happens when you're on the outside - how different foods that I eat will affect you.
Next week I turn 31, and you turn 6 months in utero on my 31st birthday. Then begins the final leg of my first pregnancy - third trimester. I wonder what lovely bodily surprises you'll have in store for me February, March, and April? I'm excited for the Crossfit Open, beginning in March, which you'll be competing (HA) in with me. Not that it'll be much of a competition considering scaling and "talkability" during workouts - I lost my breath many a time during the Open last year and I won't be doing that this time around! I'm still excited to sign up and participate in the WODs, encouraging my friends who are competing along the way. This pregnancy journey has been amazing so far; I hope I continue to feel this great into my third trimester. Thanks for being such a great kid so far.
Love,
Mama
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Sunday, January 27, 2013
Thursday, December 27, 2012
Week 21: Christmas Magic
Hello little one! I feel guilty for missing the 20-week post... it was, afterall, the halfway mark of this pregnancy! I think with the busy-ness of school before Christmas break I just never made the time to sit down and write. That, and only two things have really been happening in the past two weeks: 1) you've been moving more and more, and 2) I've been growing more and more!
Your movements. They're amazing! And in the past three days, they've been very constant - I feel you move at least once and hour. Last night when I was lying in bed reading, you were flipping around contentedly (at least I hope so.) I'm reading a book about pre-natal bonding, and while it's written pretty badly, I think there are some good points in there about making time to spend with baby in utero. I think about you the most when I work out, and when I'm lying in bed. I haven't really spoken out loud to you although your father does and it's pretty cute!
My body. Wow, it's changing. I'm definitely chubbier. I feel good, though, and I have many moments during which I look in the mirror and admire my pregnant body. That's pretty good for someone who has spent the majority of her life negatively judging her body, even when it was in decent shape! It's just so amazing how there is a life growing inside of me now... my body is being put to work, doing what it's been created to do!
Cravings. Lately, the cravings haven't been too bad, but I'm still on a dark chocolate kick. My mom (your maternal grandmother) send two dark chocolate bars for Christmas, and a cheque with which I'm going to open an RESP for you when you're born.
Christmas with you in my womb was very special. Last weekend, your father and I went to Mass. I hadn't felt you kick very much last week, but you kicked up a storm once we sat down in the pews (your dad's favourite spot, right behind the organ... haha.) It was the fourth Sunday of Advent, and the gospel was about Elizabeth and Mary. Yeah, I teared up when Deacon Bob began going on about how Elizabeth felt her child "leap inside of her womb", especially since I hadn't felt a "leap" in a few days. And now you've been "leaping" for almost a week - I love, love, love it. I'm getting more and more excited to meet you.
I had a dream a few nights ago that you were a girl. It was one of those anxiety dreams, kind of like the dreams I had before our wedding in which I dreamt my seamstress cut my dress to my knees and dyed it purple. Like, worst-case-scenario kind of dreams. In my dream, I kept forgetting about you; I kept meaning to feed you but never getting around to it, and I even dropped you out of your infant carrier. I woke up pretty upset but it's interesting that my deep-seated anxieties find their way to the surface through dreams. I wonder if you really are a girl? Dad's Aunt Janice is adament that my sister-in-law and I aren't going to be having babies of the same gender... so we'll see once your cousin in born, I suppose, and then verify it on your zero-ith birthday :)
Love,
Mama
Your movements. They're amazing! And in the past three days, they've been very constant - I feel you move at least once and hour. Last night when I was lying in bed reading, you were flipping around contentedly (at least I hope so.) I'm reading a book about pre-natal bonding, and while it's written pretty badly, I think there are some good points in there about making time to spend with baby in utero. I think about you the most when I work out, and when I'm lying in bed. I haven't really spoken out loud to you although your father does and it's pretty cute!
My body. Wow, it's changing. I'm definitely chubbier. I feel good, though, and I have many moments during which I look in the mirror and admire my pregnant body. That's pretty good for someone who has spent the majority of her life negatively judging her body, even when it was in decent shape! It's just so amazing how there is a life growing inside of me now... my body is being put to work, doing what it's been created to do!
Cravings. Lately, the cravings haven't been too bad, but I'm still on a dark chocolate kick. My mom (your maternal grandmother) send two dark chocolate bars for Christmas, and a cheque with which I'm going to open an RESP for you when you're born.
Christmas with you in my womb was very special. Last weekend, your father and I went to Mass. I hadn't felt you kick very much last week, but you kicked up a storm once we sat down in the pews (your dad's favourite spot, right behind the organ... haha.) It was the fourth Sunday of Advent, and the gospel was about Elizabeth and Mary. Yeah, I teared up when Deacon Bob began going on about how Elizabeth felt her child "leap inside of her womb", especially since I hadn't felt a "leap" in a few days. And now you've been "leaping" for almost a week - I love, love, love it. I'm getting more and more excited to meet you.
I had a dream a few nights ago that you were a girl. It was one of those anxiety dreams, kind of like the dreams I had before our wedding in which I dreamt my seamstress cut my dress to my knees and dyed it purple. Like, worst-case-scenario kind of dreams. In my dream, I kept forgetting about you; I kept meaning to feed you but never getting around to it, and I even dropped you out of your infant carrier. I woke up pretty upset but it's interesting that my deep-seated anxieties find their way to the surface through dreams. I wonder if you really are a girl? Dad's Aunt Janice is adament that my sister-in-law and I aren't going to be having babies of the same gender... so we'll see once your cousin in born, I suppose, and then verify it on your zero-ith birthday :)
Love,
Mama
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